Well today sure has been a blessing From God, even though i never asked for it. i just really feel like he is with me again, and knows that i am heading back to his side. I don't know what He has for me in my life anymore. I highly doubt i will ever step up to be a Youth Pastor, like i though he was leading me too, and why i went to college for but i am sure he had a plan for me to go and to learn what i have.

I think what my Hugh struggle i have most in my life with God is giving up control of my life to him. I think i so strong willed i don't want to let go of the ranes and just let him drive, And thinking about all that has happened to me in the past years sense college has been a result of my actions. I am so Glad God is so forgiving and is there for me no matter what.

I been reading this one book for a while, there is so much in it and it really touches home on things in my life and my life with God. I am sure i will add some stuff from it on here as i work through it from chapter to chapter. It is called Living waters.